You judge, I don't care.

To everyone who knows me well, I've always been known as someone who is extremely stubborn, to an extent my dad used to be really pissed at me and not talking to me for weeks. And as always, I choose not to be bothered by what he was actually bothered. 

I remembered there's this time, he actually ignored me for 2 weeks and "invisibilized" me at home. It's after I've shaved my hair and I thought that I was the coolest creature on earth. I naively thought that everyone shall be scared of me especially whenever I walked pass Curtin Cafeteria. Even when those poor fellas sitting next to my table raised their voice a lil, I would kill them with my piercing stare. Their sign of death (which was also my sign of victory) was when they.. shut up and left the table in a while. I remembered there's this damn annoying guy who used to tease me a lot saw me at the old Student Service and he said (in a damn loud volume), 

"Hey you this weird creature, not knowing if you're a guy or girl, how to find boyfriend next time?" 

I was actually about to leave the office until he threw those awful words and I swear, I could feel different eyes staring at me. I stopped walking, stared hard at him with "you-so-gonna-die-now" look, pointed my middle finger at him and I fcuking remained my pose for the next 10 seconds (yes, with my middle finger still pointing at him). That marks one of my most embarrassing moments in my life. Not because of his words, simply because I couldn't believe I was that.. uncivilized.

People used to ask me, 

"Chen, which side of you is the real you? The one before, or the one that we know now?"

Oh well.