Besides praying, the only way to keep myself calm when my inner voices are getting crazier and are screaming insanely, I read. And just keep reading.
My favourite read, all the stories from The Secret website. Some people have been telling me that I shall stop being too naive and rely too much on these stories and it will give me false hopes in life.
For me, there is no such thing as false hope. There is only hope, and we create the hope.
I feel very much helpless to be honest. I cried and begged to ask when would this nightmare end? But am also reminding myself constantly that, don't ask why, just face it and take it as how it is, coz we are all born and trained to be fighter in life.
Am fighting, am still fighting. But all I need now, is a just a hug. A long hug.
Coz at this point, am drained. So drained, so drained.
