A friend: I really think this guy is also a bastard like your ****.
Me: Haha Oh well, at least this guy still want his girlfriend back at this point, and still fighting hard for her. But *** never wanted me back. Or I shall say, he has never loved me. I was just a time filler, 1 year time filler for him to realize that his ex is better and all our promises are now their promises. He planned a future for us, which I thought we would reach there but no, he did not plan the future. He was just talking. But well, I can't remember much about him anymore at this point, not his words, not for what he has done. I don't hate him, seriously. I just can't feel anything anymore. I don't know the exact feeling I shall have towards a guy that made me almost kill myself. No, I did not cut myself or swallow any pills. I was just too drunk for months. No, this ain't cool. It's more than just feeling heartbroken.
But the best thing is, I've survived. Stronger.
